our deepest fear
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.(Marianne Williamson)
certified!
brrr. in new zealand that comes with full wet suit, hoodie, booties, gloves and 9 degrees water temperature.
family dog benni
we have a new dog. benni. the announcement of my mother on the phone was a big surprise to me. our last dog died christmas 2003. although i always wanted another one, it seemed clear that that will not happen. my brother and dad do not like dogs much - 'just another farm animal'. understandable in a way. so, i was very surprised that the rest of the family agreed. turns out they were not actually asked, just presented the facts. good on you mum!
now i am just disappointed that i cannot see our cute labrador puppy in his first year growing up. i love those playful puppies with big paws. once i come back home he wont be so cute anymore. will he bite me? accept me as part of the family? after all, he will have no clue who i am.
am puls der zeit oder einfach nur skandal?
habe das buch
"feuchtgebiete" von einer freundin bekommen, die gerade auf heimaturlaub in deutschland war. angeblich ein buch das man gelesen haben muss! ich bin mir da im moment gar nicht so sicher. habe ein drittel des buches gelesen, und es jetzt einmal weggelegt. sehr verstörend an manchen stellen. und teilweise so bildlich geschrieben, dass ich mir nicht immer sicher bin ob ich das eigentlich alles wissen will.
aber anscheinend streiten sich auch die literaturkritiker was von dem buch zu halten ist (
die zeit,
der spiegel). und vielleicht ist ja der ganze rummel um das buch auch ein grund, dass es nummer 1 auf der amazon verkaufsliste ist. je mehr darüber gesprochen wird, desto mehr leute fühlen sich vielleicht geradezu verpflichetet auch mitreden zu können. in dem sinne lese ich es ja vielleicht doch noch zu ende.
things left to do
lately i started to think about the things i want to do before i leave new zealand. luckily, i have been travelling full out the last two years - there are only two things (skydive, see a whale) that i really want to do before i leave. otherwise i am pretty content with what i have visited around the country.
if i could make a wish list of everything i want to do (again), it would look like this:
- skydive in taupo
- see a whale up close (two unsucessful attempts so far)
- visit somes island (the island in the wellington harbour i have been ignoring for so long)
- stand at cape reinga when no fog and rain
- skiing off the remarkables
- visiting gisborne and rotorua
- hike the rothburn track
urvertrauen
recently had a conversation with a good friend about the future. he asked me 'do you have faith that in the end your life will turn out right? that you will be doing what you meant to be doing and be where you meant to be?' in impulse i said 'no'.
we talked about this for a while, and he shared with me in him having that faith, the right things come up for him (which would otherwise not show up because he is occupied finding).
i was thinking about that for a while, and asking myself why i do not have that 'urvertrauen' (universal trust). is the source of it spiritual or mental? do you have it or get it? is it a continuous process of 'letting go' or will it just show up?
